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Arshi FF : Without You

Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 31

there will always be people who say it does not exist because they cannot have it. but i tell you it is true and that you have it and that you are lucky even if you die tomorrow. ~~~ ernest hemingway, for whom the bell tolls ~~~ the wind was chilly and had a bite in it. it blew across his face, glancing off the planes and ridges of his lean visage as he ran. he was wearing a pair…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 30

“there will be today, there will be tomorrow, there will be always, and there was yesterday, and there was the day before…” ~~~ leo tolstoy, war and peace ~~~ lips pursed, concentrating, he frowned at the laptop screen as the stewardess came silently and placed another cup of black coffee on the arm rest. a quick sharp gaze at her acknowledging her gesture and asr went back to work. “sir, can i get you something to eat,” shalini ali asked,…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 29

i have walked through many lives, some of them my own, and i am not who I was, though some principle of being abides, from which I struggle not to stray. ~~~ stanley kunitz, the layers ~~~ khushi stared down at the little pink bag clutched in her hands. it was so tiny, a little shiny purse with brown edging and trimmings. her heart felt a desert wind blow through, shattered lay everything all around, a peculiar sensation right in…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 28

’twas like a maelstrom, with a notch, that nearer, every day, kept narrowing its boiling wheel until the agony toyed coolly with the final inch of your delirious hem and you dropt, lost, when something broke and let you from a dream ~~~ emily dickinson ~~~   pain wracked the air. it stretched, it pulled, it mauled and scratched. it wanted to gouge out something. two people lay helpless in its violent rout of all things beautiful and sacred, of…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 27

but i love your feet only because they walked upon the earth and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me. ~~~ pablo neruda ~~~   darkness enveloped the the long narrow tunnel like corridor ahead… flapping of wings as asr held his wife’s hand and ran down into the blackness in front, pigeons flying out of nooks and crannies, disturbed again tonight. there was no time to lose. he figured shyam’s men would be lurking somewhere…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 26

darkness was hidden by darkness in the beginning, with no distinguishing sign, all this was water. the life force that was covered with emptiness, that one arose through the power of heat. desire came upon that one in the beginning, that was the first seed of mind. ~~~ the creation hymn, rig veda ~~~ “khushi!” her name passed through him, brushing softly against his vocal chords, making him exhale, giving him breath. the pain of the words gushing out of…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 25

tendidos en la yerba una muchacha y un muchacho. comen naranjas, cambian besos como las olas cambian sus espumas. stretched out on the grass, a boy and a girl. savouring their oranges, giving their kisses like waves exchanging foam. ~~~ octavio paz, los novios – a boy and a girl ~~~ “khushi, help me no… i want to bake a cake for asr… you know i have been going for these baking classes and learning all those eggless recipes…” lavanya…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 24

asato ma sad gamaya tamaso ma jyotir gamaya mrtyor ma amrtam gamaya lead me from ignorance to truth lead me from darkness to light lead me from death to immortality ~~~ the brhadarnayaka upanishad ~~~ he wasn’t sure exactly when the helicopter skids actually touched the ground, his eyes had caught sight of the domes of sheesh mahal a while back even though it was almost dark. the silhouettes had come into view as they approached. unmistakable, familiar, indelibly threatening.…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 23

i love thee freely, as men strive for right; i love thee purely, as they turn from praise. i love thee with a passion put to use in my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith ~~~ elizabeth barrett browning, how do i love thee ~~~ how he wanted to pick her up in his arms, hold her against him, feel her body, her breath, gather her to himself and never let go. he wanted to put her on that…

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Arshi FF : Without You

without you: chapter 22

and i, infinitesimal being, drunk with the great starry void, likeness, image of mystery, felt myself a pure part of the abyss, i wheeled with the stars, my heart broke loose on a wind. ~~~ pablo neruda, poetry ~~~ she stood by the dark still pool. no breeze in the air tonight, ripples didn’t chase each other across the surface.   yet a storm rose in her, tossing her sense of peace, lashing into her; and in its violent whirling…

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