woman in gold… a reverie

the woman was beautiful. her bearing was regal, almost aloof, her facial features fine and strong. my eyes fell on the splendid yet jaunty diamond choker on her long stately neck and i almost sighed, but what was that quiet in her eyes and that longing for something afar?

i’d gone to see woman in gold without knowing anything about it, without reading reviews or hearing friends discuss. i am glad i did for that way there were no preconceived notions, no filters from the outside to colour my interaction with the screen and its happenings.

the camera allowed me into the story. the woman was sitting for a portrait, i could see the back of the artist, he asked “adele” (was that her name?) to move to the left… or was it right? and camera pulled back allowing a little peek at the canvas.

golden bits and squares gathered, shimmered, jolted and flowed moving up, revealing a woman at last, she with a long neck, a slightly lost and sad air… and that quiet in the eyes.

klimt! i exclaimed in my head though i know very little about art, but i’d seen this one of course. somewhere, here and there, most recently on coffee mugs.

and so began the story of maria altmann and her struggle to get her aunt’s portrait back from austria where it had been stolen during the second world war; at this point, it belonged to a well known state museum in vienna. maria was jewish and had fled her country during the nazi occupation when she was a young woman of about twenty, coming to america where she’d made a new life for herself with her husband, as had her sister, and she lived in los angeles. now her sister had died, and among her possessions maria had found papers that indicated several art pieces had been stolen by the nazis from their home – she belonged to a wealthy family – among these the portrait of her aunt adele.

her favourite aunt. the wife of her industrialist uncle, who was a bright and lovely woman, something incandescent about her, at least in maria’s memory. her aunt who loved her dearly and understood her, and who had no children of her own.

something is stirred in maria after years of being tethered to the present, shutting out the memories of a time that was obviously traumatic. she wants to see if there’s a chance of getting her aunt’s portrait back. maria asks her friend’s son, randy schoenberg, a young lawyer, to help her. though his grandfather was the austrian jewish painter and composer arthur schoenberg, randy has no ties with austria and all that happened there back in the last century… to him, the holocaust is a distant far away thing. he doesn’t want to get involved; new job, second child on the way, he has no time for this.

of course he does get involved. this was a hollywood movie, there had to be certain familiar signature moments. i was looking forward to helen mirren’s acting. who’s this ryan reynolds, i wondered, i’d never heard of him before.

also, all along i thought the film was based on pure fiction.


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that painting was famous i knew, so how could there be a story like this about it and that not be part of some conversation somewhere. obviously i am not conversing with the sort of people who know such things. this is a true story. and the film hasn’t gone down well with critics i now see.

it is apparently too simplistic and tells the tale through flat characters, either good or bad. life is never that simple, people are multidimensional, story telling heavy handed, too hollywood, etc.

well, to me, it never felt like the story about restitution of stolen art or even about the heroic battle of maria and randy against powerful, over confident state officialdom with barely concealed anti jewish sentiments. that was what its structure was… the outer frame, the covering, the visible, understandable bit. i enjoyed it, i knew it was slightly simplified though not utterly simplistic.

but the real story, that lay elsewhere. it was about worlds lost that can never be found, restituted. about identity, how do we keep it when all is taken, how do we evolve and hold on to what we were while adding on what we are becoming. and most of all, it was about memory. about painful gut wrenching memories and shining dazzling ones, ones that make us proud, ones that make us feel helpless, guilty, ashamed. some that make us laugh.

i had settled down to a nice story of the individual fighting against all odds to get back what’s hers, but as helen mirren’s eyes glinted remembering two little girls posing for a family portrait with four adults, one girl smiling, the other frowning slightly, and the woman seated pulled her toward herself, her aunt adele, who she was close to… i stepped into maria’s memories. they seemed to brush against mine.

maria, painted by three actors, helen mirren, tatiana maslany (maria in her twenties), and nellie schilling (maria as a child) took me into her moments stored within. growing up in vienna, living in the heart of the city in a beautiful apartment; her wedding, all the merriment, the dancing along with the classic heel kicking hora; her father’s love for the cello, her aunt’s loneliness and beauty, her dashing successful pragmatic uncle, her elegant loving mother; the heckling of the jews, the hounding; the growing unease and fear; the sudden knock on the door… house arrest… escape… her parents sitting still as a portrait in a room as she bid them farewell, and escaped pretending to the guard she needed to go to the pharmacy. these things are made into movies, but they actually happen. they did happen in fact… and still do. in many places, in different ways.

maria didn’t want to go back to austria. no, she just couldn’t. i knew exactly what she meant. exactly.

fifty years for her, thirty five for me… i know going back isn’t easy. in fact, i still haven’t been able to.

when your home is taken from you, when you become “the other”, when you will be killed just because you are now seen as the enemy, though you have done nothing. in fact, if anything you you’ve believed you belong… when you’ve had to leave because there was no other way… and you’ve had to make another life, trying hard never to be bitter about the place your heart carried in you… it’s hard to go back.

to that place where you have lost forever. non-negotiable, non-restitutable loss. and you’ve often wondered if you could have done something to prevent it. maria left her parents and went away, they told her never to be bitter… i think she wondered at times if she had been selfish, if she could have taken them along. she never saw them again. that last memory of hers of them was the portrait she could never get back.

they danced the hora at my wedding. my father told me about hitler i remember as we passed through germany by train when i was fourteen, he was moved by the plight of the jews. i wondered who these people were and then promptly forgot about them. till i met my husband in calcutta, not exactly a place where you think you’ll bump into a rather good looking jewish fellow. i was twenty one. it was the year after my father was killed in assam. because the assamese had decided bengalis were the cause of all their troubles, “the other”. my father loved assam, he spent almost all his work life there, turning down better paid jobs elsewhere… digboi oil field, duliajan… home. i love assam even today. part of me. my mother left duliajan with my brothers four days after my father’s death, her only concern, keeping the boys safe. i was already in calcutta. i never saw him… i understand how maria felt. in my way.

get rid of the bengali. bongali khedao, i think that’s what they said. the assamese people had reasons to be unhappy, and maybe all discontent had to find a focal point, by some trick of fact and much fiction, the bengali became the bad guy in their eyes. no shades, no grey, only black and to be finished off.

i knew his life was in danger. but i could do nothing. he never believed anything would happen. he loved assam too much for that. maria’s father too had not thought it was necessary to leave austria… uncanny, the touching of our memories. when randy and maria stood before the holocaust memorial reading the names, i remembered the first such memorial i saw. it was in paris… rows and rows of names of holocaust victims, neatly inscribed. sitting and looking at it with my husband and daughter, it occurred to me i’d never be comfortable raising my child, who is jewish, in europe. i was not imagining things.

as maria walked through the rooms of their old apartment, visiting a chain of memories and then joined the revelers at her wedding, i joined in. holding hands, kicking my heels.

we seem to live in a time that honours only transience. nothing lasts long. it isn’t allowed to. having described ourselves primarily from an economic standpoint: the consumer… we have to be in a constant rush to acquire and throw away. even the word old is practically banished from our world.

woman in gold to me was about memory. about its beauty. about how it makes us us. giving us back to ourselves every time. and for that they don’t have to be good always. just true and specifically ours. “justice is priceless” says the poster, memory is even more precious, it’s invaluable.

i may never go back, or then again i may. i was reading up on the portrait of adele bloch-bauer I as klimt called the painting and i found maria altmann’s aunt was born on 9 august. that’s my maternal grandmother’s birthday. she was beautiful, in a way, my woman in gold.

i’d like to thank helen mirren and all the marias for their illuminated portrayal, ryan reynolds made randy extremely likable and touched on his transformation adeptly, thanks also to director simon curtis and writer alexi kaye campbell. the critics may not have thought much of the movie, but this ordinary viewer did.


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  • Reply
    rhea sinha
    September 4, 2015 at 11:02 am

    Soon after I started reading I realised I had seen the promo of this movie in the hall and was tempted to watch it. Didn’t remember the name though, but anything that invokes such a strong response in someone is worth it. Hopefully, will be able to watch this soon. Sounds like I am going to like it too.
    I didn’t know about your father Indi di. So sad how hatred destroys so much in the world.
    And on the other hand there is art and writing.. the nice things.. I hope we continue to cherish them over time.
    Klimt.. hadn’t heard of him (you know so much) .. looked at his paintings.. flecks of gold in them.. gorgeous..
    And I specially loved the beginning few paragraphs of this post..

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    indrani robbins
    September 4, 2015 at 2:18 pm

    ha ha first, i know very very very little. but i guess, in my advanced age, i’ve started enjoying the little i know and making connections, seeing patterns, whatever little i can, accurately or inaccurately. hate is a mindless thing and makes people act mindlessly… and once i as a human give up the need for my mind, what really is left of me. i didn’t mean to get so intensely into a personal experience, but that’s what it evoked so i went there. a funny pattern.. the man who was frenetic with anger and emotion recalling nazi atrocities, hitler, and the plight of the jews, who couldn’t ever condone such hatred… his daughter met and married a jew (i will not let that word be taken away by making the use of it be deemed derogatory in any way) that too in calcutta, he got killed for just such vicious hatred, and he all along not only understood assam, but loved it. gave up a much more financially attractive opportunity and came back to assam the moment he could. today i understand the value of memory perhaps more than i ever did as a young person. woman in gold touched mine… maybe it will trigger yours too. the themes are broader than they seem. the very act of leaving one’s birthplace, what one considers home and going and making a life among strangers… so many of us are doing that, have done that…and who hasn’t had a childhood, good or bad, who hasn’t lost… it’s all there… and more than story, the acting got me. as you know it often does. of course, i imagined barun doing randy’s role… i’d love to have seen how he’d have handled acting with an expert at the art… helen mirren. and i know ryan would become even more somehow. main pagal hoon.

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    indrani robbins
    September 4, 2015 at 2:25 pm

    and yes, there is art… writing. what sustains and brings happiness. to borrow a word from a dopey girl… hamesha.

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    rhea sinha
    September 6, 2015 at 12:41 pm

    Truth is stranger than fiction.. feels so true at times..

    When will our man get a chance to add more to an already well etched out character. When will he get to add more layers to an already thought out story? Oh Indi di hamesha is a nice word, but time is running out everyday.

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      indrani robbins
      September 6, 2015 at 7:37 pm

      i know… and i have stopped wondering. maybe this will become a story we never imagined it would. for a moment he made my world stop, go crazy and return with a funny zest to live… maybe that is the story of him i’ll always know and have… the rest… but he’s just too too good.

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        Shazia Zaidi
        September 23, 2015 at 12:44 pm

        Dear Indi, wonderful review. So sorry to hear about your father but I guess after that you became more brave than before to face the world.
        About that awesome man I guess he made my world stop too in fact they both did. Love them too much. Yes it’s been years & nothing like a seller has come from him. Wish him luck & lots of love to you.

        • Reply
          indrani robbins
          September 23, 2015 at 6:41 pm

          hi shazia,

          what a pleasant surprise. you read this piece, the movie touched me. thanks… yeah, strange and horrible things do happen at times, hard to sort of find your way around it, but one tries to… everything actually does in the end have a teaching side, something that is hard to explain, but it gives you things even as it takes everything away. i am delighted you read. uff that man… better come back soon. great to see you, take care.

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    October 26, 2015 at 9:46 pm

    Hi Indi, I read a couple of your Arhi stories… Loved them and decided to get a taste of everything that you have written… I have watched Woman in Gold. I liked the movie very much… but reading about it from the point of view of a person who has had a very similar experience, made it more real somehow. When I had seen the movie, I had focused more on the fact the this old woman and this young lawyer, took on the Governement of Austria, and even US… and against all odds won! I looked at it as a feel good story… But that was so superficial… I am really sorry for your loss. You have beautiful words inside you!

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      indrani robbins
      October 27, 2015 at 3:13 am

      hi saman,

      happy to read you are enjoying the stories. thank you, yes it was a loss and it never makes any sense but i guess it opens me in different ways. woman in gold had a high feel good factor, that terrifying loss of hers gave it depth and yes it reminded me that what we inherit what is ours what is precious and specific no matter how painful or unpretty is our memory… our memories. so appreciate your liking my way of writing and saying so. thanks.

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